Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Out of my hands
Oh how I wish that I could control my fate, my destiny, my plans, and ultimately my life! If that could be, man we would be in good shape! I'd have it all together, I would be where I want to be in this point of my life, I'd go to grad school, be married, and be well on my way to a good future! If, and only if this would be true. However, God is in control, and apparently He knows the direction my life is going, but just hasn't made it apparent to both Adam and I. WHY?? I so wish He would!! In case you haven't noticed, Adam's physical got post-poned for the 3rd time to next Tuesday because of mistakes they made, not us. This has been so frustrating, you do not even know! My question is, do I still have to learn about this patience crap? When do I not have to learn about patience, and finally have some beneficial answers?? WHEN?? It seems that every two steps forward we get in this military process, we get one step back, never really making any true progress. So, during craft time yesterday with my dear grandma while we were talking about any current news on the Adam's physical she asks me, "Could this might mean that God does not want you to go down this path, Jasmine?' And I responded right back to her, "I do not know grandma, only God knows. This could mean one of two things to me. One, either God does not want us to go down this path as you say. Or two, that God is teaching us patience." She agreed. I just wonder if God is getting any laughter or enjoyment out of making us wait 3 months to find out any worth while news on the military decision. I sure hope so, because if not, it's just cruel ;] Please keep praying for the direction of our life, and that God would direct us down the right path! Also that we would keep our faith and hope alive during this tough time of decisions!