Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Am I Really a Graduate?

It's so hard to believe that I am done with my undergraduate studies. I now wake up and have absolutely nothing that has to be done. I can do what I want, when I want, with no real time-schedule. Imagine that?!?

The day that I graduated has come and gone so quickly. Friday morning we had convocation and it was only then that it really struck me: I was graduating the following day!! That was the only day that I got emotional. All the hard work that I had been working towards for 5 years was paying off, as I was just a day away from recieving a diploma; which is proof of my hard work. During convocation we sang the song by Matt Redman, You Never Let Go, which you can listen to here. The whole song is amazing, but the verse that got me states:

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

When we were singing this song I began to think of my future. What will my career be? Will I continue on with higher education? When will Adam and I start our family? Where will we be stationed? All of these questions are out of my reach of knowing; only God knows the answers to these questions. He has a plan for my life and has had it since before my birth. He knows it all. People on the earth can tell me that I am not good enough or that I do not have what it takes to do this or that. There may not be any good schools around where Adam will get stationed. But all of that does not matter. There should not be anything that I should fear and I should not let anything get in the way. If it lies within the plan that God has for my life, then God will allow a way for me to complete it, period. There is nothing that is out of reach of God. I should not let the uncertainties in life get in the way from me simply just living each and every day for Him; which is what we are called to do. Every day we are to die to ourselves and commit the day to God. Yet every time I become frightened by the unknowns that life brings I tend to forget about simply just living for Him. It is so much easier to praise God when everthing is going well because the minute that things spiral downhill, I tend to shake my fists and cry out to God, "where are you in all of this," even though He does not deserve that. We might think that God deserts us but He is right there with us, crying the same tears we are and suffering the same pains we are. We are so blind to God sometimes, we really are!

Anyways, Saturday went by so fast with all the festivities that occurred. My graduation party was nice, with my close immediate family in attendance only, since all my close friends were busy or had prior engagements. It was hard not having Adam there, my best friend, husband, and #1 supporter. I tried really hard to get through the day with a positive attitude, and think I did a really good job despite the circumstances. Thanks to modern technology, with the use of Skype, Adam was able to attend my grad-party! It was very nice to have this privilege and helped ease my sorrows. All-in-all the party was nice. After my celebration I went to school and Christina and I walked over to sign in and line-up for the commencement ceremony. Christina and I both agreed that the whole day was surreal. Throughout the whole night we just couldn't fathom that we were moments away from graduating. Honestly, the feeling felt good but weird all at the same time. Adam was also able to hear my name be called during the ceremony, too, as he was on speaker on my mom's phone, yet again, gotta love technology! I also texted him right after I came back to my seat. Oh how he blesses me so much, he told me he loves me, he is so proud of me, he would have done anything to be there with me, but is with me in spirit; which is just what I needed to hear!

Here are some pictures to document the glorious day of becoming an official alumni of Azusa Pacific University.

Even though Adam is 3,000 miles away, he was at my party!

Waiting in line, wearing my Psi Chi medal proud!

Walking in to commencement with joy upon seeing my family!!

Officially a graduate!!!

My proud family after the ceremony

Thanks be to everyone who has supported me, encouraged me, and blessed me throughout my undergrad-college years. I am very appreciate and thankful for you; love you all! Continue to be keeping Adam and I in your prayers. Thanks!

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