Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Music Monday on Tuesday.

I know that today is Tuesday and not Monday. Hold on, really? Monday just slipped away from me. I got home and really felt tired and had fallen asleep before 9 pm. Yes, I said 9 PM!! If you know me, and my sleeping habits, you know that this is like someone going to bed at 7 pm; it's early for me!! I still wanted, however, to post a song for Music Monday because there has been one on my mind, especially today. Nothing is special about today. No special day of remembrance, no special day that is held close to my heart. However, it has been "one of those days." Let me explain.

1) You feel like everyone in the world is out to get you.
This is meant for businesses. I mean, really, it's your job to answer phones and you're going to have an attitude?!? Get a new job, or get nicer; but don't complain at me for asking you to do something that's within your job description (God-forbid!!).
2) You feel like no one understands that your husband is deployed.
-No I can't just get his signature "promptly." His signature is gold and it takes forever to get missy.
-Why do people bother telling you the wrong imformation! This just wastes my time and further elongates the process (know your job!!).
-Yes, I might where my workout clothes all day long, since there is no one to come home to look nice for, just don't stare at me in my sweat pants.

So as you can tell, some aspects of the deployment are "settling" in. There's a saying that goes, "Once your husband is deployed and gone, then everything breaks down or decides not work." Umm, yes, that is ABSOLUTELY correct! I've had to deal with setting up furniture, getting new auto insurance, dealing with the stupid bank we changed to, getting our car plates changed, and getting our base car sticker. Let me tell you, I am sure missing my hubby right about now. If we had kids, I would make the statement that I feel like a single mom. But I don't know what word to replace mom with, so I guess I just feel single. Having to deal with everything, all at once, by myself, is not fun. I mean, no one said it would be fun, but I mean, I didn't realize that I would be over-whelmed with things to deal with. You realize things that you should've done BEFORE he left, once he has left. Too bad. Now we know of more things to do next time. Unfortunately, I thought that it would have taken me a few months to add items to the list that I had made of things I miss/now appreciate about Adam. However, here are two new items to add:

1) Taking care of the part of our finances that deals with the bank.
2) Talking to business people on the phone (he sure does not how to negotiate his way into anything).

Fortunately, my night has been better than my morning/early afternoon. I ate an AMAZING, home-made turkey burger. Yummy! I then, laughed at Baxter, as he was acting silly, as always. I haven't crafted a lot lately, but today I embarked on a project during my free time before I babysat. I made some more headbands. The ones that I made as a gift for Emma. I think they came out pretty cute!

*Elastic Flower Headbands for Infant Girls*

I also listened to this song by Lonestar, called I'm Already There, which really made me break down. The lyrics hit me everytime I hear the song, but today they really got to me, expecially since I was already missing Adam, having to deal with all the previously listed things. You can watch the music video here, but I have also provided the lyrics.

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
*Courtesy of Cowboylyrics.com*

You now probably all give me permission to have a little cry-fest, having listened to that song. I mean, sleeping is not my best fortay lately, given the circumstances, and yet this song just nails it down perfectly. It just hits that one spot. The one that lies way down deep inside of you, that is always there, but slowly starts to work its way to the surface. The parts of the song I italized all get to me, but the part I bolded is such a great reminder for me. I am fortunate enough that Adam and I got to talk quite a bit over the weekend. We talked before I went to bed for a couple hours, and also before I woke up the next day. It was so nice. No description can really explain what it feels like to hear his voice, after not hearing it for awhile, let alone to see his face via skype. Blows my mind away. I know that the separation is good for us, in that it draws us closer together through the distance, allows our love to grow stronger and withstand anything in our way, and for us to appreciate things that we don't realize we miss, until their gone. But some days, you just wish you could feel his embrace, receive a hug when you're dealing with rude people, hold his hand when you're walking in the parking lot back to your car, or cuddle up close on a foggy, cold and rainy day. Yet, the realization hits hard, that it won't be awhile 'til I receive any of these things.

I guess it helps havin' good nights like tonight. One's that are filled with the simple things that life brings. Ok, I'm done, off to watch one of my fav shows, Parenthood :D

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